Give yourself permission to immediately walk away from anything that gives you bad vibes. There is no need to explain or make sense of it. Just trust what you feel.Should’ve listened to this a while ago. (via fawuhn)
It feels like forever since I’ve soberly tumbled. And why would I, when life has just been way to interesting for that? So much rugby…played qualifying for Morris (as a socially minded team) and got our asses kicked up and down all summer, but had a ton of fun doing it! We finally won some hardware this weekend at Surfsides, which was impressive because we combined half our social side and half our qualifying side, plus girls who hadn’t been playing 7s with us, and beat out all these teams that were supposed to have crushed us. So that was a great feeling!
I’ve been seeing this girl A as well and last night she asked me to be her girlfriend. Well, I asked, and she said I didn’t ask right, so she asked me and obviously I said yes. She’s always doing cute things like that, like walking me to my door even though she’s scared of my mom, leaving me adorable voice mails, stuff like that. And we clicked instantly at the bar, just small talk but enough that we just felt comfortable around each other, instantly. But it’s one thing to be able to chat casually, but even still I’m so at ease with her I feel like I can tell her almost anything. And we do have serious talks on occasion, and I always come out of those conversations feeling better about whatever the situation is. It might sound silly, but there’s something to be said about just getting to talk to your partner—if you can’t talk, why are you together? And I don’t mean just those intense relationship talks, but even abstract and random things, like ridiculous jokes or what rugby songs you sing. Just, easy stuff that can be surprisingly hard.
Oh and how could I forget to mention the rugby? 😍 She plays for a NY team and may be going to nationals because she’s that good of a scrum half. And it’s sexy as hell to think that she went to a Serevi camp with the National team. But the biggest thing about it? She just gets it, the game itself and all the nonsense that comes along with it. There’s no explaining why it matters to me that she watches me play, or having to tell her the difference between a ruck and a scrum, or explaining a social. Well, besides our song differences of course. It’s so amazing to just have that mutual point of interest, because we can just talk about it together. Not to mention that both of us want to play for team USA and understand what it takes to make that dream come true.
Someone once told me that when you are really into someone, just making eye contact gives you shivers. And it’s true. I don’t know if it’s because her eyes are so striking (god I love hazel eyes) or if it’s just because when I look at her, everything seems to stop. It’s just her and me. It happened last night on my porch while saying goodbye. Everything froze and I just wanted to stare into her eyes.
The distance will be frustrating for sure in the fall, as will the fact that for the first two months, I only have one weekend without a match. But in all honesty, it’s worth it. She’s worth it. Everything she brings to the table: her honesty, her playful sense of humor, her dreams and goals, and oh my god don’t get me started on the sex. She values me and I value her, and I couldn’t be happier.